So...what I wrote a few months back...I have actually done it. It's been almost 2 months filled with alot of travelling in India, alot of introspection and learning and ALOT of
great friends (You know who you are!). I must say, it didn't start out nice. I was in a very scary place and at that point in time I thought I would not be able to do this. So August was spent worrying, tense and totally stressed out. But 'come September' and my awesome trip to my fav city in the world...Mumbai...I have left the sress, the fears, the workaholic Sophie behind and am getting into the groove of this break. Trust me...for someone who has not had 1 day free from work in the last 7 years and who spent her summer vacay interning 2 jobs every summer in college...this is a HUGE life changing moment.
What I feel proud of is that I put myself first after a long time and though it's been a bit weird and dotted with scary...it's been liberating!! This is the best time for this break to come my way... :)
I am on my way back to Bangalore right now and am at the airport having a yummy mocha frappe with cheese scrambled eggs. yup - I have no guilt - and that coz I don't seem to be gaining weight anymore!! :) I mean, I gained 5 kgs in the 3 months before I went on this 'ok it's happened' sabbatical and BAM! 2 weeks into it I started losing the weight...without doing anything! And to top it all...I have been told I look way younger, my skin is glowing and people tell me I look radiant and happy...mashallah :)
My Mumbai trip was fantastic...it was filled with friends, music, exploring, movies, long walks by the sea and lots of me time. So yes, I spent that time, getting to know me. Sophia. And for the first time, I was able to actually be honest. I mean Ihave time to sit back and think through so much. Watching things go around me in such a rush, I have been able to grab at that solitude which my friend Kabir keeps telling me about. The inner peace that everyone talks about...well! I think I am well on my way to achieving it. The calm that descends, when you transcend fear. Fear of everthing. When you stop fighting the tide and just let it carry you where it's supposed to.
So here I am eating cheesy eggs and loving every second of it. I am finally doing what I have been scared of doing all this while. I am spending time with me. And I am loving it :)
